In between overdoing it

My Lesson in Fear

classStepping foot back in a classroom I realized how incredibly unprepared I am. The email said bring your laptop why didn’t I bring it? I feel like I stickout like a toddler at an R rated movie. What am I doing here? I’m not a business owner. I’m not a student. I’m a mom. I don’t belong here, I say to myself. I’m ready to jump out of my skin with my own discomfort. When did this happen to me? When did I get so full of fear? I use to feel in command of myself. Now I feel like I’m the lone mommy in a sea of preppy co-eds. Lame, out of place.  What am I doing?

I’m challenging myself. I’m making myself uncomfortable. I’m growing. This is what I promised I would do. This is what I know I need. So here I go face first. Lame flowered pencil (no laptop) held high,  into “adult”

Update**** It was a funny turn of events during that class. There were so many people trying to log on at once that the site crashed and no one could use their computer. Unfortunaly, it took several hours of people have problem after problem before this was discovered. It was also infuriating to watch people repeatedly stop the entire class because they failed to follow directions. I sat there patiently with my pen and paper. Eventually, I had to take out a book to make better use of my time as the instructors scurried all over the room addressing various problem.

Once the class got underway, I felt conforted looking around at several people with traditional paper and pen. I also felt that my earlier trepidation was a sign that I should have been less concerned with what others thought of me. I should have been more concerned with what I would get out of this class.

The real lesson that day was most of our fears end up much less scary then we imagine them to be. So get out of your head and get out of your own way. Do what you are afraid to do.


Comments on: "My Lesson in Fear" (1)

  1. Hear, hear. And, KUDOS for taking a leap!

    Liked by 1 person

Let me know what you think!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

In Between Moderation

In between overdoing it


_homemade goodies_


because simple joys require hard work

Practical Parenting Blog

Practical Parenting Advice from a Pediatrician and Mom

A Momma's View

My thoughts about homeschooling, health and fitness, being an expat, kids and just life in general. My personal Lifestyle Blog!

Blogger Hacks

A Blog for learning about Blogging, Digital Marketing, Content Marketing, Affiliate Marketing and Making Money with Your Blog.

Life of a Busy Dad

Life adventures of a dad of four kids with three of them under the age of Nine.

SimpLeigh Organized

Tips to Organize Your Home, Your Money, and Your Life!

The Middle Cinnamon Roll

Used to be a concert pianist. Now a grateful single mom in a soul-sucking cubicle with too many hobbies.

Insane Roots

Where it all began! In the beginning it was just a place to brainstorm my memoir. It has now became my voice in this noisey world!

A Kinder Way


Etcetera Etcetera Etcetera

... about nothing in particular, because "Candid photography is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get". Photography by Lignum Draco, "The Wood Dragon" since 2013.

In My Cluttered Attic


%d bloggers like this: