This week is going to be an interesting one for me. I head back to my home territory in NY. First we will start in upstate New York, then later in the week we will head south through NYC and to Long Island where I grew up. It will be kind of weird to revisit my life as it was almost 20 years ago. I have not been back for almost 10 years and the last trip was kind of sad.
This time around I want it to be a happy memory. I want to show my children where I grew up. Where there grandparents came from. Why people in NY talk funny. OK maybe I can’t answer that much.
I plan on continuing the journey into what has made me…well me. That might mean confronting some difficult memories and reconciling the past. But fear, pain and discomfort has kept me from visiting and embracing my New York self. It is time that I accepted all parts of myself even the ones I have been running from. I guess I have been running from seeing things change. Having to confront that my Dad is gone and I am no longer from New York. I am no longer the 20 something college kid I was last time I lived there. But change can be good. I just have to embrace it.
On a happier note, I plan on taking you with me to see the sites of New York. Upstate where the leaves are starting to change. New York City, with its kinetic energy and excitement, and Long Island, which holds a little of both with some family thrown in.
I am excited to show you New York and re-experience it again myself. Should be a fun trip!